Personal

So confused!

A month or so back i met this guy, i didnt think nothing of it at first but like, we had a lot in common, music taste and just quite a lot. Then he was at my friends party he bought me a drink blahblah we started talking and he said if we got to know each other he could see me being his girlfriend as we had a lot of things in common and i was ‘fit’ lol. We started talking and he was being really nice, and i felt a connection, something i havent felt since my ex that i was on and off for 3 years. Then my friend tells me hes asking for his ex back. So that really hurt but idk. I mean i know what its like to try and let go of your ex if you really love them its hard, its been nearly a year since i’ve been split with my ex and i wouldnt say im totally over him ive just let go of hope we’ll get back together.  There seems something special about this guy, i dont know if i should just wait and see what happens and keep talking to him hmm. Boys are headfucks lol.

Things change

Lol just looking back at this personal blog, nothing really the same. I’m not really that close to my best friend anymore. It’s just weird how things change so quickly and its like its been changed for a lifetime already. Idk i feel my lifes at a stand still, all my friends are moving on doing this, getting boyfriends, serious relationships and i know they say ‘you’ve had a serious relationship and we havent yet so thats how we felt’ but like, im not getting younger, im getting scared im gonna be alone forever ha. And they’re all going to Uni or moving away or going travelling, and theres me still stuck here, still not knowing what i wanna be, i mean im 18 ffs, why do i not know. Maybe its cos ive been messed around so much in what ive been doing idk. Hmm.

This girl is amazing Grace only got close to her recently. Shes amazing. A sweetie. End of.

This is not all my group, but its most of us and i wanted to upload one to say how much they mean to me. Yeah we can get on eachothers nerves from time to time, but who doesn’t? We’re such a big group someones bound to annoy us. Im going to really sad when all of you are off to uni, doing you’re own thing. You all have become such a big part of my life, and i can’t imagine not seeing you as often as i do!

We’re not that close anymore, i really miss her, the other night i saw her at the Joiners, obviously said hi and all that cos we don’t hate each other, we just grew apart, but normally whenever we’d see each other we’d always dance together or be together that night. But we weren’t i was with my group of friends and she was with hers. It was quite upsetting. Shes still such a good friend though. And whenever she needs me i’ll be there, as im sure she would for me.

This was Reading Festival 2010. It literally was the best weekend i’ve had. Amazing bands, amazing friends, Drunk all the time amazing. So bummed i didnt get to see Guns N Roses, as i got stuck in the mud and couldnt make it to the stage!

Chloe. When im with her, she turns me into some crazy girl. Well tbh she just brings the real me out. So crazy, don’t take no shit. Such a beautiful person and has the biggest heart i know.

Ellie. Known her for nearly 4 years now, the first time i met her, someone randomly peirced her in and she came into class with blood all down her. Literally when people say ‘hurt my friend and i’ll hurt you’ She definitely will. And everybody that has hurt me, she won’t even aknowledge them anymore. We hope to move in together in a year or so.

Nicole. This girl is fucking amazing. I can seriously trust her with my life. She is the meaning of a best friend. Whenever i’m upset she knows how to cheer me up, and when i annoy her she definitely tells me, very honest. And i would like to thank her for always being there for me especially recently when no one else was. I won’t ever forget it. I’ll always be here for you.